Not Ready

Hello World!

Life has been a little crazy lately.

Working on getting listed at a second hospital for Transplant. Hoping it will increase my chances of getting a fresh slightly used pair.

I typed out several posts... 3 to be exact..... but deleted them all.

I like sharing my thoughts and having people share them right back. But I'm just not ready yet to spill the beans on exactly what is going on inside my crazy head yet.

I do know one thing, I'm very thankful and grateful for my family and friends, and all my Internet friends. The level of support I get from all of you is incredible.

Now I just need to figure what is right for me. The choice is all mine. There is no right or wrong. But I'm at a fork in the road and there are 2 paths. They are different but neither could be a wrong choice. So know I just need to decide which direction I want to travel.

Whichever way I choose I will walk with my head up and take in everything around me.

Breathe Easy

So Close!

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I WAS SO CLOSE!!!

OMG, I was called last night, 11-11-11 at 8:30pm for my Lung Transplant!

I had a panic attack after I hung up with the Doctor and frantically gathered everything I thought I might need if this Transplant was really going to happen. I quickly realized I was no where near prepared as I thought I was, haha. My mind was racing! But my Mom and I hoped in the car and off to the hospital we went.

When I got to the hospital my mind was still a blur and the check-in person asked for my birthday, which I gave, it rolls right off the tongue because they ask SO OFTEN at the doctors. But then she asked how old I was.... drew a complete blank! Hahahhaa I had to turn to my Mom and ask! FACE PALM! Total blonde moment.

For those people not familiar with Transplant protocol, the Doctors always call 2 people in for the organs, just in case the first person isn't compatible. And I person could not be the right fit for lots of reasons. So they always call in a back up. I was back-up!!

I did all the pre-op testing just in case the first person didn't match up exactly. And began to wait. Around 12:30am the Doctor came in and said, not tonight. It was definitely a bummer. I was ready. But it was kind of what I expected. The ride definitely felt REALLY long. I felt like the school bully just popped my balloon.

So I was disappointed that 11-11-11 wasn't the day but this just means I am now number on the list!! Hopefully they get some more lungs in very soon. It would be great to get them before the end of the year. Then I could start 2012 completely new!!! :)

I'm still hopeful. Its coming. Soon.

Breathe Easy

Staying Healthy

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I'm freee! I was in the hospital for 14 days!! BORING. But it was needed. I was struggling there for a minute. I feel much better, I really do. While I was in the hospital I missed Halloween again. This is the third Halloween in a row I've missed. 2009 I just came out of a coma, 2010 I was in the hospital and 2011, once again hospital. Thats annoying. I'm not super bummed about it because 1. I don't care that much about Halloween and 2. I would rather miss Halloween and be good for Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving is where its at... FOOD!!! Haha. Love Thanksgiving, probably my favorite holiday, other than my birthday of course. Its all about food and family. Awesome holiday. My brothers went out and celebrated Halloween though. They sent me pictures...

My baby bro as Wilfred, and his lady friend.

My big bro (back middle) and his wife were Jersey Shore people

Me and my pumpkin buddy.

While I was in the hospital New Hampshire got a freak Nor'easter in October!! Dropped 2 feet of snow on people. My house lost power for 5 days. The power was still out when I got released from the hospital so I went and stayed with my Grandma. Although the snow was pretty, I did not enjoy waking up to that. Its too early! We basically went from Summer to Winter! What the F Mother Nature. Most of the snow is thankfully gone. And warmer weather is predicted for the next couple weeks. I can live with that.

The view from my Hospital window the morning after the storm.

Railroad tracks across the street from my G-ma's house.

Trees in my backyard.

Now that I have my freedom back, all my energy is going into STAYING HEALTHY! I'm not thinking of anything else these days. I plan on do a lot of hibernating and staying away from most people this winter. Everyone is always sick with something, even if they don't "feel" sick. I'm sorry its flu season, I don't trust your "feeling." Its all about me this winter!!

Breathe Easy